i am shallow.

I am nothing special. I am just like every other human being who pursues that she’s going to do something, make something of herself. Instead she gives up trying, and is burdened by her failure. She is not different, for she is just like everyone else. Her life consists of a roller coaster ride of emotions, and half finished dreams. Where has all the inspiration gone? She was promised help and support, so why is she fighting the obstacles half ass on her own? So close, yet so far. She tells herself to go forward, but when the chance is in sight, she crawls back into her hole again. Hibernating, she is hibernating, you see. Waiting for the sunshine to knock on her door and help her begin her life. But where has the sun gone? Eleven months in this cold winter, and she wonders, is there more life than this? Is she living it right? But you see, she does not know. She was handed the same cards as everyone else, so why is she playing them so poorly? The dealer hands out extra cards, but she crawls back into her cave, her hiding place, for another chance was given.

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